Mystery, how it hovers over me
moves me like a rolling sea
Captured in the current I sway
pulled under and sinking I flay

The battle to reach the surface
a goal with no real purpose
Still lost, but somehow achieved
to conquer this life aggrieved

However empty of remorse
I do what I must with no recourse
But when was I ever too proud?
Did I reach for more than I am allowed?

To dream beneath a star kissed sky
to spread my wings and soar ever high
What lofty fantasy I entertain
Such a fool, it is all in vain

It burdens me and defies defining
this shameless incessant whining
That I must pour it out or choke
give it my pathetic all and be properly broke

Cash in these weighty chips of emotion
now worthless due to lack of devotion
A bank full to over flowing largess
unwanted affections cause deep duress

For I would lavish, yes greatly spoil
the desired one of my heart, my darling, my foil
Give it all freely and with impassioned gladness
rebuffed and mistreated, I drown in sadness

I can not let go nor hang on
All my choices are gone
I am bereft, I am forsaken
go to sleep tender heart, sleep to never awaken.